Thursday, March 25, 2010

Now That Thick Is In...

So I should be studying for my Chem final tomorrow, but instead I'm over here marveling how crazy it is that in a matter of a few years, being thick has become a compliment vs. being an insulted.

I've always been on the skinny side with this need to gain weight (for myself, cause I think I'm too skinny and because the weight might make me voluptuous) and now I feel the need to gain weight moreso than ever. I feel as if everyone has an ass now and I'm among the few shaking my back to the music and contorting my body in pictures, to have that hourglass figure.
Don't get me wrong, I have my curves, but not curves like I want. I'm not saying I want to be like Buffy the Body, cause that's just to much for someone as small as me...but I would like to whip out an outfit every once in a while and have people say, 'she's got a body on her'.

Now with the rise of video vixens, Nicki Minaj, and those models on pesky party fliers that every party promoter throws your way as he talks you into coming to his event, as if he'll remember you once you get to the door, I feel as if we have become flooded with the images of these gloriously thick women, who aren't afraid to be thick. And there is most definitely nothing wrong with being thick, especially if your naturally thick.

I'm just surprised at the extent of underground modeling, which features thicker females vs. the magazine spreads of couture that feature more slender females. With the exception of the extremely famous thick vixens, such as Beyonce, gracing the cover of Vogue and Cosmo every once in a while, I'm just trying to figure out why thick isn't being pictured as classy.

Why does the thick girl always have to be wearing some sort of revealing clothing or lingerie??? Is it because if you have the curves, you might as well bare it all vs. if you don't you should cover up???

It's just some food for thought, considering being thick is the new movement and the thicker you are the better. And with this increased level of explicit sex songs taking over the airwaves, and don't tell me it's not explicit when just a few years ago everyone was singing about getting the girl to the bedroom, vs. now what he's doing in the bedroom. I'm just saying, it's getting a little harder to play a relatively new slow jam without feeling all hot and bothered. So, I only want to know if as these more thicker models make themselves known, if they'll ever be fully clothed modeling or will they have to remain half-naked???

Regardless of what happens, I'm still gonna try and get thick. I mean, it's only a matter of time before I'm gaining weight in all the right places.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Yet Again...

Yet again, I return from my hiatus and marvel at how un-busy I was during those past months, weeks, days, that I haven't posted.

So, I'm back, yet again.

So what has happened in life? Absolutely nothing of great importance. I feel as if I've done a whole lot more partying over the course of this year, than I have any other year. I also feel as if I've allowed Twitter to dictate my life. I've been slacking off in school and now that I'm close to the semester being over, I'm worrying like crazy, but doing nothing proactive.
I should be complaining about my life being in shambles, but I have this whole new outlook, if you can call it that. I simply don't care as much anymore. I'm more focused on connecting now with people, so I can have connections when I graduate versus ensuring that I have really good grades, not as if I'm not receiving them currently.
As it stands right now, I'm looking up internships and summer jobs, and trying to get some business cards made up for myself. Why? I have no idea why, but it sounds like something I should do.

Currently however, I have one huge project that I've taken on...taking care of myself. So many people forget about taking care of themselves, and I don't want to be in that number. Now, I'm not saying that I need to hit the gym, do my hair, or keep myself looking good (I would like to think I'm already doing that), but I'm trying to take care of myself in regards to caring more about myself versus people.
This does not mean, I'm about to turn into a self centered bitch...I'm just trying to focus more on myself and my own well being and mental and spiritual state, vs those of others. I've spent my whole life ensuring others were happy and forcing their happiness to be my happiness, not anymore. I'm taking control of my life and my decisions and doing things for me now, because I want to do them, not because someone told me to.

So with that said...I'm off to start this project.